Category Archives: death

Casket Shopping…

That was an experience I could do without. I went casket shopping. Now… I have come to learn that I am a comfort shopper.  I have never liked to shop but I have learned it is an excellent distraction.  Thankfully … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye…

I said goodbye to my mother tonight. She’s not there… not really.  The brain tumours and morphine has taken the essence of her, only a confused shell remains.  Still there was something poignant in actually saying goodbye. I feel like … Continue reading

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Wishing for Death…

I feel like a ghoul. I’m waiting for death.  Not with dread but with a sense of anticipation… of needing relief. The last month has been one of the most physically and emotionally exhausting of my life. My heart stops when … Continue reading

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All is not as it should be…

“All is as it should be.” These are supposed to be words of comfort and while they are well meant and I thank people for their concern… I have trouble seeing this whole experience is ‘as it should be.’ How … Continue reading

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